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Such a little thing, like everything
Swirling around in my mind right now
Mixing words and thoughts up
Like the tossed salad I was trying to make
Like the cake I tried to bake
Like the gifts I tried to buy
Like the joke I heard that made me cry
And I looked for a pair of socks, but both were missing
And I looked for two candles to light
But they were nowhere in sight
And two beloved toys when I was small
They were gone and that’s all – that’s all…
And two people I loved dearly I cannot find
And the tears in my eyes make me blind
And I still can’t find the salt and pepper
And I still can’t find the two candles or toys
And I still can’t find the two socks
Or two locks - two locks to lock up the doors
And keep the memories from flooding into the overwhelming emptiness I feel
As I panic and reel because I can’t do anything about anything
Even though I want to help so badly
Salt and pepper, two socks, two candles, two beloved toys
Two beloved people - a best friend, and my beloved sister,
Both gone – and I didn’t even get to say goodbye…
And while the rest of the world rushes around, going on its way into another year
I look for the salt and pepper
And try to do simple things that aren’t simple anymore….
I can’t help anything, I don’t have any answers, and I can’t make anything better,
I can’t even find the salt and pepper.
When both are gone it just isn’t right
It just isn’t right…
In memory of Stephanie Marsh and Nadia Barghelame
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