Sometimes it’s hard to look at yourself in a mirror after a tragic loss, divorce, or other major change in your life. A collection of objects in this picture represents the parts of your life that are now jumbled and hard to make sense of. Each object in this picture is made of glass, and it either reflects light, refracts it, or absorbs it.  Some things in your life will become distorted, some will disappear into the blackness of confusion, and some will simply reflect back to you the events and emotions that perhaps you don’t want to see.

We go along in our lives just fine when everything is in place and where it should be. Changes can bring confusion and make it hard to keep working, setting goals, and thinking of the future.

If building a life could be compared to putting together a puzzle, losing someone is like losing several of the pieces and trying to make sense out of what is left.

Looking Glass

What do I see in the looking glass

Am I looking through, in, or beyond

Am I seeing now, later, or the past

Am I seeing the permanent

Or things that won’t last

What am I seeing in the looking glass?

Sometimes I stare straight ahead

And I see nothing - black - or clear

Sometimes I look carefully at the reflection

But nothing seems near

Nothing seems dear

 I feel numb - with no feeling

And all I see are meaningless objects

Sometimes I see circles that never end

Circles going round and round

The circles of my daily life from the time I spend

On everything urgent

But nothing really important

I should be excited  about what I see in the looking glass

My friends and family in the reflection

My accomplishments, my dreams, my goals

But the reflections do nothing for me

And I keep looking for rainbows

That will show up someday

Somewhere somehow some way

I keep working and dreaming and sacrificing every day

But in the looking glass I see nothing

But abstract illusions

That hardly ever keep their promise of ultimate happiness

And the image in the looking glass

Doesn’t make sense to me at all

I used to have my life planned

And I knew exactly what to do

But life disagreed with me

And planned things differently

Please Lord, send some light to me

Send some light to make a rainbow

That will fill my life with color

In the midst of a gray rain

And all the pain of losing someone who meant so much

I still love them but I cannot tell them how I feel

I still hear them in my mind

But I cannot see them

And the looking glass holds almost nothing

That I want to see anymore

Not  even myself

But somehow God sends light every time I get this way

It takes time, lots of time

But He always brightens up the day

And He helps me to remember a promise or two

That I can hang on to

Even when I’m so tired

And now I see two circular rainbows,

Neverending lovingkindness and faithfulness

Two rainbows

In a circle

And two promises

That will never be destroyed:

 

“He will be the stability of your times, a wealth of salvation, wisdom and knowledge; reverence for the Lord is the key to this treasure.”

Isaiah 33:6

 

“I will lead the blind by a way they do not know, in paths they do not know I will guide them.  I will make darkness into light before them and rugged places into plains. These are the things I will do, and I will not leave them undone.”

Isaiah 42:16

 

Sometimes we are blind because there isn’t enough light. When we lose someone, our eyes are blinded by tears and by many unanswered questions about the future. How can we go on? What will happen now?

In this sense, we are blind. But God promises to give us stability, salvation, wisdom, knowledge, and to lead us and guide us. He will turn the darkness into light.

And when there is enough light in the midst of the rainy days of sorrow, a rainbow appears - a symbol of his faithfulness.

The looking glass may  contain the ordinary, the reflections of our life during the everyday. Seeing them (after we lose someone) can turn them into things we might even loathe.

A kind of darkness comes over our life, and the looking glass doesn’t hold the promise it used to as we reflect upon our life and our goals and dreams.

But God says, “I will make darkness into light before them and rugged places into plains. These are the things I will do, and I will not leave them undone.”

“Undone” means to leave out, to leave destitute, to forsake or even abandon to destruction. God will not leave us that way.

“God is not a man, that he should lie; He doesn’t change his mind like humans do. Has he ever promised, without doing what he said?”

Numbers 23:19, Living Bible

 

“And when there is enough light in the midst of the rainy days of sorrow, a rainbow appears....”

“...Thus says the high and exalted One, who dwells in eternity, whose name is holy...”

“I dwell on a high and holy place, and also with the contrite and lowly of spirit...”

The picture shows 2 lights because of Hebrews 8:1 as well as other passages:

“We have such a high priest (Jesus Christ) who has taken His seat at the right hand of the throne of the Majesty in the heavens.”

Also read the description in Revelation chapter 4.

“In order to revive the spirit of the lowly and to revive the heart of the contrite.”

Isaiah 57:15

“Contrite” is another word for broken. God dwells in a high and holy place, and with the broken-hearted.

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