Like a wind that drove me so far off the course I wanted to stay on, that I feel lost and alone and unable to change anything.
I have tried over and over to love and care for others, to make them part of a destination I once dreamed of Ė but I feel like I have failed...
And now Iím angry with myself,
For not being able or willing to change life around me.
When people criticize me it hurts so much, because itís not just my fault,
Itís not just me, canít they see,
But because Iím angry with me, I feel guilty when I defend myself.